The first of the 'ber months is finally upon us. It feels just like yesterday when I was jumping up and down saying hello to the New Year, or enjoying the hot summer months in Manila (April-May, JSYK). And now we're only a few months away from the end of the month, the start of the last quarter, the beginning of the end. Time flies really fast when you're having fun, or working, or busy fangirling, or wasting time doing things you think great but actually mundane.
TBFQH, I really don't know how to blog anymore. It has been a while since I wrote a "proper" blog entry; and by proper blog, I mean an entry with words, thoughts, feels, and not mere videos and some description. Since I started working a "professional" writer, I am more careful of what I write even on Twitter or Facebook. Not really a bad thing though. Thinking before clicking is actually a good practice.
I actually feel like I have lost my "writing" voice, or that spontaneous "writing" voice. It has been a while since I've written something really personal. So please, no judgment. :P
September is my birth month. You see in 10 days, I will be 22, and I'm scared. I'm scared that one day I'll wake up and realize that I've done nothing to reach my dreams. My problem is that I'm not content. I want so many things that I no longer know which one I should get first. In the end, I end up not doing anything about it, letting it pass than being frustrated of giving your all then not getting it after all.
For example, when I heard that Clara C will release her sophomore album, esc, on Sept. 25, I have a serious urge of getting a pre-order. Unfortunately, a serious urge is not enough for me to click "buy now". Jeez, it costs $10 plus $5.99 for the shipping plus some taxes once it arrives here in the Philippines. So, I'm guessing it will cost me around $20++ to get her awesome album. Here's the awesome preview, btw:
Then, Phantom of the Opera, something I was seriously obsessed about when I was 14 when the movie was released in 2004, will be running in the Cultural Center of the Philippines until the end of the month. And, the ticket prices are so expensive and I don't want to get the cheapest seats because this is Phantom of the Opera we're talking about.
But, American Idol Season Season 11 finalists will be coming here in Manila to have a show at the Araneta Coliseum on September 21, a day after Phillip Phillips birthday, and I love Phillip. And I also have to see Heejun. Of course, I want to get the VIP seats, k. Plus, I already missed seeing Hailey and Casey last year!
So little money, so many shows to watch! Good thing I was able to watch Potted Potter at the RCBC Plaza earlier this evening courtesy of Ate Rona! Definitely, hilarious! I want more please. The ending was sooo bitin. I was hoping they would make an encore, but they didn't. But I loved every moment of it! Garry and Jesse are extremely talented, great improv, and spot on humor. Thank you Ate Rona for the early birthday gift!
Well. I don't know if I'll be able to get a physical Clara C album or watch Phantom of the Opera or the American Idol Live Tour 2012. I just can't spend all my month's pay on things like these; it's impractical and I have to feed my stomach and keep my toes warm. Only shows we won't be able to get what we want all the time.
But I don't want to be such as pessimist, a non-believer. Maybe good things will happen! After all, September is my birth month and today's the first day at Hogwarts and I was able to watch Potted Potter! Maybe some great things will happen and the universe will all of sudden conspire to help me get what I want. Then, maybe, I one day I'll wake up living my dreams... Maybe, I just really have to want them sooo bad I should not just sit on it or pretend it never passed my waking life. Maybe just maybe. Fingers crossed and let's see. (So much drama meself! #chauss)
